Comments on: Starting the Journey http://exodusyouth.net finding true freedom Wed, 01 Sep 2010 14:52:51 -0400 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: usblogger http://exodusyouth.net/youth/starting-the-journey/comment-page-1/#comment-191 usblogger Wed, 20 May 2009 09:04:34 +0000 http://exodusyouth.net/youth/starting-the-journey/#comment-191 I read your article and while I think what you guys are doing is wonderful i am not sure I can beleive it. You see you say god doesn't hate me for being gay. If that were true then why does the entire chrstian chruch beleive it? Perhaps I should tell you a little about myself first. I grew up in the church. I live with my step dad and mum and we go to a conservative chruch in the uk. Both my parents are totally homophobic and both paniced when I told them i was gay at 13 years old (actually a teacher told them i had been caught on gay pron). My step dad took it upon himself as his personal goal to beat it out of me. Since then I have 'reformed' on the outside and although I am only 19, i already am considered the rising star of christian ministry. The truth is that i am hopelessly addicted to porn, fantasising etc. While i have yet to act it out, it's not because i don't want to, only because i don't know anyone else who is gay. As it is, i know that god MUST despise me because he says that people like me can't get into heaven. I've tried to change but it just doesn't seem to work. I also can't keep this double life going much longer. It's going to have to be one or the other, and i don't know if i can realy change because i have failed so often. Do you understand what i am trying to say, becuase if you are, you are a first. Anyway i have to go to class now. I'll check back later. Thanks , Lee I read your article and while I think what you guys are doing is wonderful i am not sure I can beleive it. You see you say god doesn’t hate me for being gay. If that were true then why does the entire chrstian chruch beleive it? Perhaps I should tell you a little about myself first.

I grew up in the church. I live with my step dad and mum and we go to a conservative chruch in the uk. Both my parents are totally homophobic and both paniced when I told them i was gay at 13 years old (actually a teacher told them i had been caught on gay pron). My step dad took it upon himself as his personal goal to beat it out of me.

Since then I have ‘reformed’ on the outside and although I am only 19, i already am considered the rising star of christian ministry. The truth is that i am hopelessly addicted to porn, fantasising etc. While i have yet to act it out, it’s not because i don’t want to, only because i don’t know anyone else who is gay.

As it is, i know that god MUST despise me because he says that people like me can’t get into heaven. I’ve tried to change but it just doesn’t seem to work. I also can’t keep this double life going much longer. It’s going to have to be one or the other, and i don’t know if i can realy change because i have failed so often. Do you understand what i am trying to say, becuase if you are, you are a first.

Anyway i have to go to class now. I’ll check back later.

Thanks ,

Lee

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